- Jackie's Life -

:: Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely ::

2008-09-04T00:48:00.000-07:00

So many words for the broken heart
Its hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me...

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I cant be there where you are
Theres something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
Guilty roads to an endless love
Theres no controlAre you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I cant be there where you are
Theres something missing in my heart

Theres nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be youre asking me to feel the things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I cant be there where you are

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I cant be there where you are
Theres something missing in my heart

::Fucking Shits::

2008-07-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

Alrite.
That’s for today- Friday.
Im really sick badly.
Feeling dizzy yet exhausted.
Guess never get enough sleeps and I need more RO water,perhaps.
Im really getting pissed off for what she said to my dad’s friend
Alrite,straight to the point.
Since she wont be reading my blog!
The person I was actually talking is my aunt.
No offence aunt.
I do hate you a lot!
Can you please get your fuckingmouthshut!
I know you were not satisfied with what I ve did!
Definitely , u’re just JEALOUS!
Everything happened just because of jealousy!
U ve got what you wanted.
And please stop all the rumours alright.
Im not as useless as wat u ve said to those aunties alright!
Work result proven.
Im not purposely saying this just to show how smart I am!
Because im not.
But my result wasn’t that bad!
This is the truth!
U gotta accept it.
Yea,im better than her!
Your just don’t willing to confront the unpleasant truth!
Im realy getting fuckingmoody because of this!
I never even sound a single shits when u were spreading rumours bout me.
Because I know once I sound,
It will gonna be a disaster.
It’s chicken way to handle it!
So I try to avoid talking so much.
Just get yourfuckingmouthshut or else i bet it will really gonna be a disaster!
Once again you did tat to me,GET A LIFE.
YOU KNOW ME WELL!
As you can see Im really not in a moody today
Fuckingtatcibai la!
Im sorry , I don’t mean to be rude.
I treat her nicely she wouldn’t know!
That’s all for today.

.:The Day After Tomorrow:.

2008-07-13T02:39:00.001-07:00

Today is one of those days, feeling down, feeling blue, nothing clicks for me. It’s raining, it’s pouring, and my life seems so boring. Nothing is really wrong, just this overwhelming feeling of nothingness

Today is one of those days, feeling down, feeling blue, nothing clicks for me. It’s raining, it’s pouring, and my life seems so boring. Nothing is really wrong, just this overwhelming feeling of nothingness

Life is full of changes. I, as a person, am changing a bit everyday. I think I am beginning to live a life of nothingness. I do nothing and now don’t feel much and soon would be thinking nothing as well. Thinking doesn’t help, thinking in the right direction helps. I kept on thinking how, when, why and so on but it wasn’t in the right direction. So starting this moment I stop thinking until I realize what that right direction means. Pain has become me. It’s not a stranger anymore; it’s not an uninvited guest. I think the only thing which has been consistent with me is pain so it’s like a buddy now. I have lost all ties with the world. I don’t talk much, sometimes I feel like but then that feeling disappears faster than ever. I have to literally force myself to live, talk or do things.

I started to hate talking , bt sometimes I really hope tat I can just ‘bla-out-everything’ that kept in my mind bt I didn’t, I still feel so lazy and continue being my unimportant person that sat at the corner considering everything that happened or mayB I shall stop being sluggish to stop the feeling of nothingness and boringness that strikes against me.

Anyone ? Pls !!

2008-06-20T09:44:00.000-07:00

Can anyone translate it in pinyin for me ?
Im dying for tis song

范玮琪是非题

范玮琪 - 是非题
每段故事都有一篇剧情
每段爱情都像动人旋律
一颗真心却只向着你前进
也许爱越单纯越着迷
你是窗外另外一片风景
在你眼里我是什么关系
你的呼吸藏在我的爱情里
何时能诚实面对自己
我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心
我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋
我会期待
爱情盛开那一个黎明
一定会有美丽的爱情

.: I ' v e__L e a r N e d :.

2008-06-20T09:35:00.001-07:00

Disappointed is what i get in tis past few years..

Disappointed is what i used to..

Rumors are keep on increasing..

Untrue n false statement are becoming popular..

Friend is ady a question mark 4 me..

Friend is something which i afraid n aware of..

Friend is :-

Something which is priceless

Something which is meaningless

But its ady become something which is none of my buSiness..

Altho its not a good memory but i shud feel thankful too..

bcos :-

i've learn from mistake.. -n-

i've learn to be alert..

:: A Poem For Someone I Love ::

2008-06-18T05:35:00.000-07:00

If I could write you a letter,
What would i say?
Could it make things better?
Or would it make everything ok?

If I could write you a song,
Full of luv hope and grace.
Would you tell me what in me is wrong?
Could you say it to my face?

If I dream of you every nite,
and every nite I pray.
Tat sumday you will notice me,
And notice the things I do say.

Everytime I see you,
My world stops running.
I do not know what is happening,
I just feel like stopping.

I promise you my luv will be true,
Hope tat youll promise me too.
And everyday will be a special day,
Bcause now and forever I will wish to be with you.

:: Friend ::

2008-06-17T11:53:00.001-07:00

Friend !
Is some1 tat I treat sincerely,
But u treat me like an idiot !!
Friends !
Is some1 who I lend my hand while ur in trouble,
But u took tis as advantage to hurt me !!
Friends !
Is some1 I trust ,
But u betray me like nobody’s business !!

[S] [O]

Stop !
Treating me like an idiot !
Stop !
Calling to do something last min !
Stop !
Using me to win back ur frenz !
Stop !
Taking advantage on me !
Stop !
Checking and eyeing on me !
Stop !
Backstab me !
Stop !
Hurting me !
Stop !
Telling all those c2pid lies to me !
Stop !
Taking me as a joke !
Stop !
Teasing me like nobody !

Jus stop all of ur plan by chasing every frenz away from me..
I’m jus a simple person..
Jus let me go …
I’m tired..
Pls, jus let me go …

.: Once Again :.

2008-06-17T11:50:00.001-07:00

Once again ..
Once again being treat invisible..
Once again being treat like ALIEN..
Once again n once again..

When there’s a hope, there’s a chance *BULLSHIT*

Ya, I alwiz daydream 2 be a successful person although without a degree holder *so wat*
Ya, I alwiz took a longer time 2 make a decision *so wat*
Ya, I noe I’m frickle minded *so wat*
Ya, I noe I am too emotional n get distracted easily *so wat*
Ya, I alwiz think a lot (necessary n unnecessary stuff) *so wat*
Ya, I like to stress myself, keep myself bz *so wat*
Ya, my mood can swing anytime * so wat*
Ya, I alwiz keep things 2 myself n hate myself *so wat*
Ya, I can be very nasty at times *so wat*
Ya, I can be very hot tempered *so wat*
SO WAT ?
Ya, I;m jus a normal person with attitude prob
So Jus leave me alone as wat n how u all treat me !!
I’m sick to stay in here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.: i noe who noes me, who doesn't :.

2008-06-17T11:43:00.000-07:00

My frens assumed that I am stubborn n being so small gas…
Bt they do nt noe there’s a story behind it…
Some more I belif there’s no point 4 me 2 explain…
since I am too lazy n too tired 2 do so…
as I;m nt goin 2 explain it 2 only ONE but to MILLIONS of ppls…
Bt I’m actually Kinda curious about wats ur feelin when ppl seems 2 create rumors bout cha..
Telling d not true yet crapz in front of ppls…
Dun tells me tat u dun k at all…
tis is natural reaction
so i'm nt tat stubborn as u think
who wanna kept thinking all those silly things
no ones DO
n I;m nt tat foolish 2 belif wateva ppl said ANYMORE…

As I ady act ntg happen since we’re jus FREN….
woopz! Wrong, wrong, wrong……
nt reaching d lvl of fren yet .. we’re juz those “HI-BYE” fren only …
Bt 4 wat u wanna keep gossiping bout me !!!!
if ur really tat “so-good” fren
U wun be in d most black-listed in CS geng…
Even till now… *proud of it babe*
Obviously all of us dislike tis bastard, bt now… all turns into hypocrites…
Or shud I said, they are hypocrites
Jus tat I neva realized altho some1 had warned me…
Well, yeah.. I’m jus being so c2pid again…
Hooray ~~ I’m truly deeply hurt by u guyz…
Yeapz, u all success ady !! Hooray~~~
Too bad, I’m ain’t nt respect 2 hypocrites ^_^
So dun feel proud of it, k
Anyhow, I’m nt gotta mess u up….
Bt jus KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT BIATCH !!
when u guyz told me tat Yum-cha wif tat biatch
n start gossiping bout me = socializing… *funny*
Altho u feels so frustrated n annoyed when she non-stop gossiping bout me…
There’s no one chud force u from doin sth u wouldn’t like 2 do…
Disappointed bout u guyz !!
5 yrs frens, ended up juz like tat………………………………
Dun worry, no more tears……………………………
I’m awake………………………….

U shud noe urself well……….
I;m nt goin 2 act like how u did 2 me………
feel pity 4 u……….
Surround by those untrue friends……………
Altho I;m nt as many frenz as u……………..
bt i;m happie wif my life rite now…........ *mada mada mada*

Ive made my grandiloquent wrap up. im a little hurt, yea,
but u’re too insignificant to make me promise to NOT TO COMPLAIN.
But a little favor that I’ll do, is that I will never whine another word to u ever again,
even when u act like as if u REALLY CARE or whatever shit that seemed LIKE U CARE.

No Mood

2008-06-16T09:53:00.000-07:00

haihz...i also dunno why..and why ppl treat me like tat..i told the things and ask something,why no heart to listen de..wat am i doing wor...am i doing wrong..can anyone tell me..i also dunno how to do liao..dunno wanna say or not...haihz...forget bout it lar..ppl wan to listen or not also not my fault lar..up to them lar..and fell nowaday keep on no mood...i also dunno why no mood at all...maybe something happen tat i dunno...xD confuse le...me also confuse...teach me wat can i do le...haizzz

When Bored Speaks

2008-06-16T09:30:00.000-07:00

I can finally send emails and blog and do the normal stuffs I do when I go online. Cheers!! Ok, I know I'm damn loser, posting something everyday, but I'm really damn bored lor! Sorry, I can't help it lah. And yes, current status bored.

Woke up at 3pm this afternoon. Amazing huh, received a call from a my hengdaiz. Thanks hengdaiz who broke my horrible sleeping pattern. But I guess I just wasn't used to the brightness sun, I got this horrendous giddy spell that makes my head goes dum did dum for the whole day.

Everyday raining like freakily crazily, don’t feel like going anywhere.
Yaya, im bored, penniless, and brainless *snort*. Thanks to my own laziness. Altho i'm bored at the moment, thus i have a SHIT load of time on my hands, and i can again waste my life away
on the Internet like the good old days :) Zillion thanks to the person who invented internet.

Taaa !!

Me Myself and I

2008-06-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

Name ~Jackie (Ah Loon)(JacKzAi)
Age ~ 22 (2008)
Gender ~ Male
Status ~ Taken By My Lovely Dear (Shing Yhee)
D.O.B ~ 11st Of Jan
P.O.B ~ K.L
Horoscope ~ Capricorn
Height ~ 178cm
Kindergarden ~ Tadika Dahlia
Primary School ~ Methodist Boy's School Kuala Lumpur
Secondary School ~ Methodist Boy's Secondary School Kuala Lumpur
Hobby ~ Soccer,Comp Games,Online-ing,Chatting,Out-going & etc
Email ~ jackie_boyz_85@yahoo.com
Msn ~ jackie_boyz_4ever@hotmail.com
Friendster ~ jackie_boyz_85@yahoo.com
Fav.Colour ~ Black and White
Fav.Number ~ 7
Fav.Food ~ Fast Food
Fav.Drink ~ Teh-O-Ais
Fav.Sport ~ Soccer
Fav.Songs ~ Rock,Rap,Pop,R&B & etc
Fav.Movie ~ Comedy,Horror & Action
Fav.Cartoon ~ Iniitail-D (animation)
Fav.Subject ~ Math & Malay